Night Life Animal

I just went back from Genting Highland aka Tour De Casino.
Everybody is tired and sleepy, except me...
Have a look in the casino is what we had done, just go and taste the situation of the casino.
I feels like wanna bet but luckily the ATM machine was out of service, and my pocket was left 40 ringgit.Maybe somebody will ask why i cant bet with RM40, but...my idea is i prefer lost one piece of RM50, better than lost four pieces of RM10.

I cant concentrate myself for the trip...
i keep thinking...my brain was turning and turning...just try to get a solution of what i was thinking.

In Genting, my brain-turning process was keep on changing, when every time i thought i get the best solution to make my mind peace, failure will come out after a while...the feeling was sucks.

I found that some people choose to run away or hide from a incident to prevent them from worst situation and try to make what their believe become true or as what they think.
They scare to become like "that" and also "this"...so they prevent themselves from "that" by don't want to do "this". But everything in this world is formed by "this" and "that"..
(what is "this" and "that"? They are anything in ur mind)

Just because "this" and "that", i use my brain on them and i hate to use brain, it makes me tired.
That is why i always look like get stoned, but actually i know what am i doing and what you are thinking.

so i had make a decision, to stop me from "this" and "that", this decision maybe will cause i regret for whole life, sad for whole life, spoil me for whole life but sometimes i need regret to remind that i am still alive and help me to build my complete life. Smoothly life will not cause you to remember what you had did in your life, but regret is something that let you think about it before one second you die. So i did the potential regret decision, maybe i will do it or maybe i will regret on my regret decision and change it.

According to my tradition, Alcohol can end everything, i always believe that and it is useful for me....and i did it tonight again...with a carlsberg.
it is tasty and nice, i am not addicted to beer but i addicted to the feeling of drunk, free your mind and a little bit unbalance that cause by alcohol. And finally i can get a peaceful sleep in this morning 6.32 am after i finish this blog.

A dumb, boring starting..

I dunno what i wan to write this blog, 

this is not a blog, 

this is an introduction, 

it seems like everybody around me is start to write a blog, so i also follow the trend la...

There is another one semester to finish the advanced diploma, the feeling is complicated, 

the time had pass through too fast.

Sucks and good lecturers, nice and caring classmates had made all the time pass through faster than what i thought.

Always try to stand aside and look at the people around me, use my ideology to interpret them or use their own ideology to interpret them. This is what think before this year, I put myself as the middle of the world, after i try something new this year which is interpret myself with my own ideology and other people's ideology.

Conclusion, we are living in a movie world, every thing can be so dramatic, appear as a climax and end without knowing by anybody. 

Get yourself awake, drunk, paralyze, conscious, free, relax, nervous, helpless...

different situation cause some changes of a person, they might be learn something or maybe lost something.

Some people say that i had change, change to be more positive, but who know the scene behind this changes?

maybe i hit by a car and lost my own attitude?

maybe i slap by god and He ask me to be more like a human?

maybe i swim in the deep sea and suddenly a fish told me :"hey Bopet, can you dun be so sohai?"

Anything might be happen on me now unless quit smoking which is quite impossible for me now..

Quit smoking mean i lost my rely on life target...i think this is the reason why addictive stuffs appear in this world, when you feels like wanna run away from reality world, it gives you a moment of separation from your body and soul. Somebody say it even let you get close with the own god that stay in the heart of everybody.

That is all my starting la.. if disagree with me, go kill yourself la..

i said already what, this is MY starting..

Make Love No War.